Alright, where to begin. I guess it would be best for everyone if I start from the begining, if only I knew where that was.

I have been troubled by thoughts and a gut feeling for these past few months, and have been struggling to find the solution to the growing number of problems that I have been dealing with. Ranging from work and other economical concerns, to a nagging feeling deep in my gut, and memories of times long since past resurfacing all at once.

All of my recent concerns and stress have brought my attention to only one viable solution, with three potential options; all of which I am presently considering.

The solution that has presented self to me in a varying number of ways, was joining the military; though it would create several other problems and put other stress and challenges ahead of me, it may be the only way to solve the more troubling problems in front of me.

I have been struggling with this decision for an extensive amount of time, and have reached the point where I will have to make a decision that will impact not only my life and future, but those of the people around me, the people closest to me, whom I care greatly for, and quite possibly the lives of several others whom I have yet to meet.

I am at a crossroads and am facing the most difficult decision of my life; but do not know what the 'right' choice would be.

The best choice that I have managed to come to is to spend an extensive amount of time with a few close friends while I take the time to sort out my thoughts and feelings on the various options. I do plan to follow through with this option, though it will likely create more tension; it may be the best thing to do in the long run.

The military branches that I have been considering for the other options are the Navy, Navy Seals, and National Guard.

This journal posting is but one way that I can hope to get feedback and advice from anyone who I know, and everyone that may be impacted by this decision, so I encouarge those who are following me on DA here, and those who find my profile and read this to take a moment of their time to respond with their thoughts and feelings on the matter.